February 2013
1 post
This blog makes me so sad. Its such a trigger.
January 2013
1 post
Reasons for leaving this blog.
Looking back on this blog makes me so upset. I’m still losing weight, but I’m doing it the healthy way this time. A proper diet and regular exercise is the ONLY way you can lose weight and KEEP it off. Trust me, I know from experience. A pattern of restrict, binge/purge will only satisfy you for so long. You will hit a plateau, and you will stop losing weight. You will probably become...
November 2012
1 post
good thing I’m in the mood to kill myself.
August 2012
1 post
I’ve lost close to 12 pounds in just over a month. Now just need to start working out and toning. To be honest this has been unintentional. I’ve been eating around 800-1000 calories the past two weeks only because I sleep all day so I eat a small “breakfast” when I wake up and dinner with my family.
June 2012
3 posts
I’ve been struggling so much lately. Just kill me already.
Need some thinspiration. I’m at an all time low when it comes to my weight and my body. I have no time to workout with all this school work, I’ve been stress eating like crazy and the fucking horrible part is I don’t care. But I will care when I keep getting fatter. Fix me!
May 2012
3 posts
mom regarding sisters new found habit of cutting: “If she gets one more cut because of you I don’t know what I’ll do!” Thanks.
36 days since I’ve last cut and I’m currently breaking down.
It's days like this where I think suicide is the...
April 2012
45 posts
Tonight I was hanging out with some guys and we were just chatting about hot girls at my school. I kept bringing up girls I thought were pretty, and lots of them they would say “no she’s gotten fat”, I swear these girls are just average weight now who were too skinny before. Another few they went “ew they cut, that’s so fucked”… No fucking wonder girls...
-thin-:
Starve, lose, recover, gain. Starve, lose, recover, gain. It’s a vicious cycle that I fear I may never escape.
Suicide is probably my best option.
So this just happened. I went on a date with this...
Him: Alright. I'm gonna stop talking to you so you don't blog about me to all your followers.
Me: lurk more wtf
Him: Yeah cause I look at your blog. I did when we talked. And then after reading I realized how fucked up you were
My hair won’t stop falling out…. shit.
Death would be so much easier.
Just overheard my Oma telling my parents that my sister was “her girl” and everything about how she just loves HER so much. ok. bye.
Anonymous asked: please don't kill yourself, just please don't do it. I came across this photo a while ago and it really helped and changed things for me. Particularly the last few lines; 29/media/tumblr/com/tumblr_lzuzg3xRpo1qi4zkho1_500/png I hope it helps you even if it's only a little bit. Just consider it. (tumblr doesn't let you send links in messages, so I replaced the "."s in...
I wish I could be considered "skinny".
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"grey-sailor", you just messaged me and I can't...
Anyone willing to diet with me? Keep in contact daily etc?
Here are my reasons for dieting.
I will feel more confident in myself.
I no longer will have to be jealous of other; they will be jealous of me.
Being able to look down and see my hip bones and my thigh gap.
I could wear anything, and look great in it.
Everyone will think I’m so much prettier.
I will never feel embarrassed about the way I look.
I could go out in sweat pants and a t-shirt and still feel beautiful.
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That awkward moment when you cut up your whole forearm but it’s way too hot to be in a long sleeve shirt… oh is that just me?
The thought of suicide just won’t leave my mind, that scares me.
I love being told I’ve gained weight…
I’m going to have to fast for like a week to get rid of this Easter Chocolate I swear. This is my biggest weakness and I’ve already gained so much recently. I need to pull it together…I have no motivation anymore though.
HAH scratch that. 27 lines down my arm. Let’s see how many are deep enough to stay long.
