This blog makes me so sad. Its such a trigger.

Looking back on this blog makes me so upset. I’m still losing weight, but I’m doing it the healthy way this time. A proper diet and regular exercise is the ONLY way you can lose weight and KEEP it off. Trust me, I know from experience. A pattern of restrict, binge/purge will only satisfy you for so long. You will hit a plateau, and you will stop losing weight. You will probably become really frustrated at this point, so before you do anything rash… feel free to join me on my journey to a healthier life. Here’s to Beautiful Beginnings! xo

good thing I’m in the mood to kill myself.

I’ve lost close to 12 pounds in just over a month. Now just need to start working out and toning. To be honest this has been unintentional. I’ve been eating around 800-1000 calories the past two weeks only because I sleep all day so I eat a small “breakfast” when I wake up and dinner with my family. 

I’ve been struggling so much lately. Just kill me already.

Need some thinspiration. I’m at an all time low when it comes to my weight and my body. I have no time to workout with all this school work, I’ve been stress eating like crazy and the fucking horrible part is I don’t care. But I will care when I keep getting fatter. Fix me!

mom regarding sisters new found habit of cutting: “If she gets one more cut because of you I don’t know what I’ll do!” Thanks.

36 days since I’ve last cut and I’m currently breaking down.