mom regarding sisters new found habit of cutting: “If she gets one more cut because of you I don’t know what I’ll do!” Thanks.

36 days since I’ve last cut and I’m currently breaking down. 

Tonight I was hanging out with some guys and we were just chatting about hot girls at my school. I kept bringing up girls I thought were pretty, and lots of them they would say “no she’s gotten fat”, I swear these girls are just average weight now who were too skinny before. Another few they went “ew they cut, that’s so fucked”… No fucking wonder girls feel so much pressure to have the perfect body, guys are so judgemental. 

-thin-:

Starve, lose, recover, gain. Starve, lose, recover, gain. It’s a vicious cycle that I fear I may never escape.

Suicide is probably my best option.